i dont care eh eh eh!

-wala akong pakielam kung mangalunya ka 24/7 kasi personal na buhay mo yun. ker ko sa kasalanan nyo?
-wala akong pakielam kung mandaya kayo ng garapalan eh sa ganun talaga kayo eh. dependenyente.
-wala akong pakielam kung inuuna ang di dapat...ganun talaga paginspired
-wala akong pakielam kung may sit-in siguro kulang lang sa pansin
-wala akong pakielam kung kristyano kayo kuno? eh marami namang bulaang propeta ngayon.
-wala akong pakielam kung dinudulot lahat sa iba...di ko need ang sympathy mo
-wala pa din akong pakielam sa matataas na grado ng iba kasi pwedeng madaya...di naman yun basihan ng mga natamo mo. nasa naranasan mo pa din magkakatalo balang araw

-basta gawin lang ang dapat. mananahimik na ang lahat. di ba? walang personalan. trabaho lang. at kung magrereak kayo dito sa nabasa nyo. ibig sabihin ginagawa nyo talaga ang mga karumaldumal na mga bagay na ito? tapos dadaanin na naman sa personalan? magpakapropesyonal naman oh? di naman ako magsusulat ng ganito, kung walang nagttrigger sa akin mga tsong. sabi nga sa Newton's 3rd Law. For every action. there's an equal but opposite reaction. Pero sa mga napagtanto ko ngayon, hindi magiging equal ang opposite reaction. Malamang alam nyo na kung baket. At para sa iba na magrereact na wala pang alam, yung tipong galing sa mga kwento lang...ay nako dong.. subukan nyo kasing magimbestiga at tuklasin ang hiwaga sa siyensa! Sa panahon ngayon, wala ng benefit of the doubt na. Naisip ko lang, bakit kaya nila ginagawa yung mga ganung bagay? Kung sinasabi naman nila na di sila talaga gumagawa non? Nakapagtataka talaga... hays, cant believe makakatagpo ako ng mga ganitong pangyayari. kala ko sa mga palabas lang sa pinilakang tabing ko ito makikita.

-o sya, much has been said. delikado talaga kung marami talaga nalalaman. Totoong ngang, sa pagiging totoo, marami ang masasaktan at magugulumihanan. Kasu kahit anung gawing tago natin eh, lalabas yung ayaw nating makita at malaman.

Waiting on a Silence - Revised and Dedicated to Mr. Grumpy Gills

Yes. alas! it's been a year. Cant believe it neither! From being a common blockmate then the next thing, being my first ever bf and as well as bff. ehehe! 3 yrs of nothing but a blockmate, we never talked nor jerked each other. I never expected him, i had my true love before and i thought we can be more than just friends...well i only fooled myself, waiting for almost 4 yrs in a row but nothing happened. I think Father God, as we say, hehe! snap it out of me! I never prayed for someone that will accept me. Because somehow, i had the hidden percentage of being self-centered, that if you love someone, they will hurt you with no reason at all so i focused myself that i am so fragile just to wreck me like that. (as what my friends experienced while wetting my skewl uniform with all of their tears!) Yes! im fazed to fly (just like the song) but the difference is, i know WHY. I had been turning down guys, making myself unfittable for them just to make sure they will not like or love me. I embarassed myself in front of them. I did the opposite things that they might not like. Turning them off is the term. But Charles is different among them, he saw my imperfections, stubborness, pathetic side of me and also the MEAN girl me. But i warned him that im short tempered type, i CAN'T get easily jealous though girls swoon and sigh whenever his around or hugging him with no reason at all, its ok for me actually because for them yes there is malice somehow but for Charles, i know deep inside nothing more or nothing less.. to feel,- just a friend or brotha. Im at eased. I told him that i am straight forward type too, no buts just dots...continue!, Manipulating guys is so easy if you ask me (NO offense ehehe!) not only in my experience but others, true! right?! I remember the 1st time we had a fight, i told him not to make any sacrifices for me because i really dont want to be a burden. Why am i so stubborn daw? its because of my pride? why cant i just let people do their thing for me. I dunno! that's only my answer. Its the only same thing we usually argue off. MAKING SACRIFICES FOR ME, BUT NOT LETTING HIM. I told him, i dont want to be spoiled, whenever i want this or that, his still explaining, when i shouted, "I CAN MANIPULATE YOU IF I WANT TO! BUT IM NOT THAT WICKED TO PURSUE IT! NEVER REPEAT THINGS THAT YOU'VE DONE IN YOUR PAST RELATIONSHIPS, IM ODD..VERY ODD!". so we end up so timid. drastically quiet. then we smiled and burst laughing. saying sorry and all that jazz. He knows what makes me tick, mad, happy, fullfilled and contented. (Background music: Make Me Whole - Amel Larieux)

We Thank Father God because of His big part in our REALationship. To our friends, kadas and blockmates who never stopped teasing us to death. Singing the PC song. "Perfect Combination love plus you and me." lalala! (I really hate that song because of the cheesyness! well it has been the national anthem whenever we went to skewl-echoing in the hallways and staircases). All the quarrels we had. His sacrifices for me, i cant count them, i never thought that there would be a person that will do anything for the sake of my happiness, security and contentment. I could never ask for more. For my Grumpy Gills...bahu mo! heh! che! ahahah!

November 10, 2008 by d1withbullet

“Waiting on a Silence”

by: Precious M.R.P.

Just a little peak on my window

Waiting for someone on the meadow,

Strong faith is inside my heart,

Benevolent man riding on a cart.

Eyes keep staring on crystal clear,

Waiting for a man that wasn’t here,

Appealing for his long lost better nature,

A bombardment of a half of mankind’s future.

Extinction is a pure drivel

My secret came up and unravel

Thoughts rushing thru veins of infinity

Too late…He already had an epiphany.

Yes! Im too arrogant..

He’s too flamboyant..

My mind is in turmoil.,

I don’t want Agape to spoil.

Such a hindrance.

I cant bear the acceptance?

Still living in martyrdom

A killing spree of undying boredom.

It is quite ironic isn’t it?

Destiny’s pathetic doens’t it?

Denying the truth obnoxiously

Yes! Im weak and that’s the reality

Now chances had passed

I can never recall the past

He’s gone

But I’m done

The regret is too hazardous

And the pretensions that you choose.

Here I am, still waiting.

To a man that keeps this painful beating…

11-10-08

10:43am GMT 8+

President Corazon Cojuangco Aquino 1933-2009

I'm not a martial law baby and also a people power baby. Even when Cory started being the 1st Woman President of Asia, I'm still at mom's womb that year of 1989. I had my consciousness knowing that Fidel V. Ramos is our President in the years of 1995 and so on. I have been aware since then about what really happened from the Marcos regime, Senator Benigno Aquino's Assasination that led to Edsa People Power 1 Revolution. Those topics were include at our textbooks in Sibika at Kultura, Hekasi, Kasaysayan ng Pilipinas, Asian History and World History. Documentaries, biographies and Newspaper clippings were everywhere. Questions are still out pouring who killed Ninoy. Somehow the Aquinos were quiet about the topic. They know somethings that might trigger who really killed Ninoy. But things are better left unsaid. After 26 years. things changed but Cory's faith to all of us Filipinos remained the same. I dont know about her a lot but as i have observed, she never stopped wanting, praying and begging for the entire betterment of our country. She's from a famous, wealthy and renown family of Cojuangco. Married to a rookie politician from Tarlac and gave birth to 5 children (4 girls and a boy). The 2 Aquino kids were famous because of the world they have chosen: Politics and Show business. Yesterday, i watched Kris Aquino's Interview. It was a dismal day because of a typhoon. Cory Aquino succumbed to colon cancer after fighting for almost a year plus. 3:18am at Makati Med. Her wake held first at La Salle Greenhills were in the famous counting of snap election held 2 decades ago. Everybody was decisive about this and some were hoping for miracle for Cory's state. But it is God's will muttered to all of us. Cory was in pain, hence she's been unfazed and ready for everything. She died peacefully and didnt show any careworn from having the disease. Kris Aquino told "the 1 month story" of Cory's last fight to cancer. Its hard that you cant do anything for the one you loved. She misses her mom who witnessed her mishaps and mayhem during her career. She said that im the prodigal daughter and she thinks that she done bad things that a daughter could possibly do to her mother. She will miss her texts, her support and her unconditional love. Her mom indeed is a very strong person, woman and mother. A very good boss to her employees. Years counting for those who worked for them and felt like a real family. Unselfish, witty and humble. During her presidency, she had the most clean record of all time. She's been very outreaching, approachable and never seen smugness. Wreaking was never in her vocabulary. Havoc! - that's one of the things she wanted to disappear here on earth. Hope everybody is ready for a change. a change for the better or rather a change for our best! Thank you for all the moral values, belief and loved you have shown us. Thank you President Cory! And just want to share this, she really looked like my Lola.(Grandma, Nana). She has the features of Guevaras from Marikina. White complexion as well as the chinese eyes. We came from the spanish and chinese ancestors. Kapitan Moi Guevara who started the shoe industry in Marikina, Philippines.

For the Benefit of MY Doubt

is it true that "What you don't know wont hurt you? or What you have learned will benefit you?"

Let's begin from the very beginning...Father God, as we know is very Great. I guess He always shows me the difference between being absurd or being "too good to be me" hehe. Lately doubts are flooding up my not so innocent, anxious yet optimistic mind. I have been so ominous these past few weeks. I feel so unease a couple times. I felt like there is something wrong or something will happen and im sure its not good. I remember my h.s. days when i almost lost my eyes because of reading non-stop novels! naah!!! im just exaggerating! My classes back then start around 7am and i must be off bed exactly 5am (that computer teacher, sure did give me a lot of creeps! yikes!). But as i finish the 5 books of Harry Potter- Sorcerer Stone up to the Order of the Phoenix in just 1/2 weeks with the sleeping habit of 3am! Yes. yes, i know what you guys think! hmmm... my mom cant stop me from being so "bookwormed " all the time. Dont worry, studying is my life, quite no bother, in class i dont participate if i am drowsy to death cause of novels ;p but when quizzes, long tests, quizzes, seat works, monthly examinations and did i already mentioned quizzes again? ahaha! im all fired up! bring it on! I remember the first earthquake i have experienced. It's just mild. But i predicted it. I felt like ominous that thursday night of somewhere in 2005! Thanks to the flying cockroaches, the bummed felines in the neighborhood and of course our dog! 1 hour before the said earthquake, the cockroaches were flying here and there! (eew-ness! right!) i said to mom. "something might come unexpected?" after i got a shower. Then cats were singing, actually i dont call that singing! they were outraging! !meeaaaaawwwaawa~! like that (anyway just provide the sound effects, your imagination is way cooler than mine!) When i gone to bed, ready for the new chapter of HP5. my dog gone mad. started barking at the wall? what the heck right. so after an hour. voila. 30 secs of rocking-bed experience! so i guess your own instincts must be your first reference!

So much from the pre-history period. PREcious and HISTORY. pre-history? got it! nyaahaha! ok ill stop now! not funny eheh? Let's get down to business. Yes i feel ominous once again, and i already figured out what's bugging me. I searched, I listened and I conquered? yeah! i really want to be an FBI agent! i dont want to tolerate wickedness, unjustly, poluting minds, pretenders and all that jazz! in God's time, it will be done. i dont want to be deceived again. or others. Reminds me of my ultimate fav movie "Mean Girls". I really learned a lot from that movie. Good and bad. "Fugly slut, plastics and University: is a Jungle-Survival of the Plastics". In good side, i love how the plastics (rachel mcadams and others) turned their lives back to normal yet better selves!

I there for conclude that: "MATURITY IS NOT BASED IN AGE NOR EXPERIENCES. YOU'RE MATURE IF YOU ARE DOING THE RIGHT THING EVEN IF IT IS HARD FOR YOU OR THE OTHERS TO ACCEPT."

My Old Reviews Part IV - ONE PIECE 399 latest episode straight from Japon. 400 upnext

Original Posted: 05/07/2009
Network: Torrent dloaded ;p but it is available in FUJI TV since 1999 up to the present WARNING-CONTAINS SOME SPOILERS ;P (ORE WA MASAKA!) Its been 3 years since i was hooked up in this One Piece syndrome. Before, my hs classmates, way back 2003 really like watching it over GMA7. Im really not amaze about it at first, can you see how it was drawn? Luffy is not handsome as Sasuke or Ichigo do, but as what they always say, THERE IS MORE THAN MEETS THE EYE, anyway, when it was aired again every morning of 2006. Actually that was the 1st time I started watching it. The 1st ever episode. THE MAN WHO WILL BECOME PIRATE KING!(you're wondering, what a gal like me will love a shounen animated series rather than shoujos? Simple, Luffy is one heck of a guy and along with his crew, they are one heck of a gang!) Ever since then, i cant get enough of screaming NAKAMA! NAKAMA! NAKAMA! meaning companion, crew mate, ship mate. As of now, im still continuing my craziness about the Mugiwara crew. I am now in episode 399. Freshest episode from japan. It's all about Luffy and the rest of the gang going to New World. He met some other pirates who were not rookie at all.Rivals. The world titled them as 11SUPERNOVAS, along with Luffy and Zoro. You must have at least 100 million plus bounties in order to be one of them, Actually the real highlight was, finally after 3 years of watching this series, they finally inserted again GOL D. ROGER - the pirate king, Luffy finally met, Silvers Rayleigh, the pirate king's vice captain! The Vice Captain of the Roger Pirates! Is is it sugoi? ehehehe! Oda never lets me down. Every pages of the manga, every clip of the series, it progresses! i already gave up Naruto, prince of tennis and dragon ball era. Dunno? I guess watching one piece serves as a therapy to me. Whenever im depressed or disappointed, watching Luffy's crazy antics and imagining it all over again, makes me laugh until my lungs give out! ahaha! that's what you called supah laughing my a** off! nyahahah! Can luffy save ace from being executed by the marines? Soon! jah! meshi time!

My Old Reviews Part III - The Jackson 5 - ABC Album - Abc, I Want You Back and Ben

6/27/2009

I remember my childhood days when my mom just turn on our cassette tape and play her original collections of The Jackson 5. I was so pissed back then cause i hate the classics (but i changed heheh!) and in late 90's, it was the era of spice girls, back street boys and aaron carter! We always argue about what tapes to play cause i hate the sound of her music. Like barbara streisand, bee gees and the family Von Trapp album. Oh yes! i grew up with those songs! Specially the afro way! Classical music in my youthful days nagging me to death. Dont like them really! Its like mom's torturing me with those kind of entertainment paramecia! But i guess when we get older, matured and open minded, you will realize that everything is beautiful even if it is not appropriate for you. Now i am enjoying the sounds of the old days old skewl and old lingering remedies because of the modern artists of today who gave a new renditions to the early ones. Sergio Mendez's, Boyz II Men, Whitney Houston's, Beatles, Carpenters, Bob Marley and barry manilow's! (I really enjoy them now! Believe me huh?) My mom's ultimate favorite was the album of The Jackson 5 "ABC". Every morning she just turns on the volume (take note: MAX) then i said and sighed. deeply while holding my playing cards (a.k.a teks! ahahaah!)" Oh well..here we go again...Pompompom! pompompom! ABC-is as easy as 123. Do-re-mi. ABC. baby you and me girl! Go on girl! i think i love yah! Shake it shake it baby! wooh!" Well i cant blame her, she just grew up IN the days of afros, funky and soul melodies. Hence, because of my mom's stubbornness in listening in young and not so young MJ's music, i finally came to realize this past few years that i have been missing it. I memorized the rhythm and lyrics of it. Now I really do love listening to those TJ5 songs with my cousins and our folks inside the car. I even burned a cd for it way back and included to ipod Videos. I am singing "Ben" on Wow Magic sing. (yes, i cant believe that neither ;p). Daddy Day Care movie really inspired me too cause they have used the songs of The Jackson 5 as the soundtrack. So sadden, that Now, MJ is gone, i really missed my childhood perks like my mom missed her childhood days too. ABC, Ben and I want you back are now my Last Songs Syndrome that will echo in my youthful memoirs forever. Farewell - King of Pop Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 - June 25, 2009)

My Old Reviews Part II - One Piece! - Spoiler Alert!

Posted 3/21/2009

When i was a kid, animation always amazes me. though im ending my teenage years now, it never stopped me from being a fan. at this era, animation status all over the world emerged. (well thanks to our japones friends). its a stress relieving entertainment. well before great graphic artists' heads explode, i really want to give the credits to Eiichiro Oda. the one who made ONE PIECE animation. it started when Oda dream of having his own manga when he was in his teenage days. and it came true when he decided to work under the DRAGON BALL Z management. At that time, Oda motivated himself in doing his own creation, which is the ONE PIECE. ONE PIECE is about a man named MONKEY D. Luffy who wants to be a PIRATE KING someday. in order to fulfill that dream, one must find the great treasure (which is ONE PIECE) who belonged to the ex-pirate king GOL D. Roger. Now, he set sail to find that treasure, great adventure and true friendship. later on, on the series, LUFFY met his NAKAMAS (CREW). They had this mini-ship that they named it. GOING MERRY. (it was wrecked, i think at the 4th season-ENIES LOBBY saga). And the "new.shiny. off the hook" ship is now named A THOUSAND SUNNY. Way better than MERRY. Ok then, lets talk about the nakamas of our CAPTAIN LUFFY. Luffy's first mate is RORONOA ZORO - an ex-pirate hunter. Luffy saved him from the marines and zoro promised to protect him no matter what happen. Then there is NAMI, Luffy's navigator. Luffy also saved her from debt. Nami's ability before was stealing and she loves money. Also she has great skills about the weather. Next is USOPP a long nosed guy who always makes story just to impress everyone, but he is a great sniper and also fixes everything in MERRY. Then there was SANJI - a.k.a. BLACK LEG. He will serve as the cook of the crew. He loves women though he says he is a gentleman. He and Zoro always pisses their asses off. Luffy searched for a doctor in his crew and he found one, Tony Tony Chopper, a reindeer who ate a devil fruit that turn him to be a human, but not exactly. So they set sail and along their journey, they met a damsel in distress named Vivi. The princess of Arabasta desert. Their town was conquered by a Shichibukai (a powerful war lord that cannot be stopped by anyone including the marines). Luffy and rest of the crew helped Vivi and Vivi was officially member of the Straw Hats thus, after the war, she returned to her kingdom and cant go with the crew anymore. After the Arabasta case, Luffy's bounty increased along with his crew too. One of the enemy did survive. Her name is Nico Robin, the adviser and assistant of Crocodile (the conqueror of the Arabasta desert and founder of Barrock Works). She sneaked at the Straw Hats mini-ship. She gained trusts to the other crew except Zoro's. She is an archaeologist who seeks the world's long lost true history. Then there was Franky, a leader of a bunch of guys in Water 7. He is a great shipwright. Luffy recruited him when Franky had his own wanted poster after the Enies Lobby case. (Luffy defeated the CP9 marine members and he declared war against the world government, for the sake of Robin's life). The new ship was born then, Thousand Sunny, because the Going Merry can no longer set sail. The last recruit is Brook, a human who turned out to be a live skeleton, he ate a devil fruit that can bring back your life only once. After he died, his soul was lost in finding his dead body and it was too late. He's is a musician as well as a swordsman. I think he's 80+ yrs. old now. He's a former pirate too. He's crew mates died when they were having a journey in Grand line. He left alone in the bewilderment. He's seeking his lost crew mate and believing he is still alive. Its name was Laboon, a whale. He wanted to see him once again and say sorry if the rest of the crew didnt make it. So kinda interested? start watching it now! i assure you, its like a pringles canester. once you pop it, you will never stop wanting it! jah!